The point:
To share my very unusual ongoing experience that began in 1994.
The reason:
While I don’t consider anything I may say as proof of a crime having taken place, there are insights, I believe, useful to consider, not only for contemplating this story, but in general.
The Time:
Why was there so much time between his passing and when I sensed his presence in 2008?
I received an explanation for this, and I will try and explain part of it: After his death, he revealed that he visited a dimension where there was just images and thoughts, but no emotion connected to them. There was no distinct colors, or light and dark areas. The only thing to do was to pay attention to thoughts and images that would be there. His consciousness looked at what happened, and every other possible outcome that might have been, if different choices had been made. At a particular point, he saw his fate, and what he could still do to change his story. He relayed, that once he came to that realization, everything made sense and he began to see and hear, shapes, colors, light and dark, words, and music -everything, but more importantly, he could feel emotions. It was a release, but he also realized that what he was learning, both in life and spirit, was more of a remembering than anything else.
It is often reported, by those who have had Near Death Experiences (NDEs) that they get to experience, before coming back, all knowledge in the Universe. He agrees, but explains you don’t get stay in that state, unless you become one with the Universe, which is hard to do, because you will completely lose your identity as a soul who is working towards that outcome without rushing, or needing to get there sooner than anyone else. Time matters when it makes the story more beautiful.
Why am I sharing all of this now?
I didn’t know why this happened or what I was supposed to do with it. I just knew that whenever I had an idea, he would indicate nope, that’s not happening. I just gave up, because I knew, whatever I was supposed to do, would come to me at the appropriate time. I had a feeling something was going to change a few weeks prior to this blog getting started, but I wasn’t sure what it was going to be. I’ve learned to be patient, even though I’ve hated every minute of it.
- He says: It’s not that it’s time, but that the time will rhyme.
The Poems:
I have hundreds of poems which have come through since 2008. Presently, I’m not sure what will be included in this blog. I think it will be a combination of old and new. “I’ve Got Cobain Inside my Brain” came out for this blog specifically, so we’ll see what happens.
What I believe:
In life after death; that spirits can communicate, in a variety of ways, with the living; in life before birth; in fate that can be changed; in justice and forgiveness; a passion for feeling, both highs and lows; in being genuine and vulnerable; in weird and wonderful things, in a world that’s an endless mystery.
What will be seen in this blog:
Stories about the living, presented in a particular way to serve as a platform which allows a spirit, who calls himself Kurt, a way to speak.